Gonna miss the solo train trip!

The semester break from year 1 to year 2 has lasted for almost a month, and alhamdulillah I get the chance to return to my hometown after years. I never liked to tell where is my hometown but I guess it's all unfolded now.

I always wanted to go but the time wasn't right. Father won't let me go on my own, obviously. So having to match the holiday with every family members wasn't a piece of cake, it was almost impossible. 

And alhamdulillah, finally. How beautiful Allah's plan is! I gotta tell you, I'm rather stubborn, when I say no then it is no. I do wanted to go to Japan at first when I heard that the destination for this year's trip is there, ONLY IF my friends go. At first they were so excited but after awhile it diminished just like that, so I kinda forgot about it.. It doesn't excite me that much anyway, Japan isn't an amusing holiday destination to me.

Until few months back, when the participants asked for my help as some of them know I can communicate in Japanese. I had a thought of going to Japan alone. Since my close friends aren't going, I might as well just have an adventure and travel alone! I have no problems about the language anyway. I contacted my friends, assure that I had a place to stay, etc, but unsurprisingly, I got a no from my father.

Since the holiday is quite long, I thought I might use the trip as chance for me to travel without my family, so I proposed to my father about my plan to join. He didn't say anything. So I assumed it was a no. I don't really get the chance to go on my own, so, I was okay. Hahaa

One day while I was talking about writing a letter in Japanese, talked on the phone, he casually said if I wanna go, I can use his credit card to buy the ticket! I was so happy, I cheked the lowest fare available, it was All Nippon Airways. It's not a low cost company (or carrier?), so a bonus for me! I got the ticket for RM 1457, not really a deal, but averagely lower. The Halal meal was nice anyway.

But since I'm getting on different flight with my friends, I had to travel alone to the airport! It's not a "had", it's rather a "get" I think! I always wanted to know how it feels like. Hahahah. Besides that, other than 3 days of University programme, I get to travel on my own to meet old friends and see Islam in Japan!! 

I will talk about it in detail later for my own reference as well. It was such a priceless experience for me. I went to Japan but I didn't go to Tokyo tower, Sky Tree, Shinjuku, Harajuku, Odaiba, Disney parks, no. I only got on the train, and walked just to see the world and to find myself. :)

In conjunction with fund raising for our trip to Japan, we had been given an opportunity to open up a booth and sell things, a program called "Medi Entrepreneur". Like you have seen in TVs, where the pathway of the ground floor is flooded with booths and you have to pass through those obstacles just to reach to your class. Exactly like that.

At first I did not assign myself to open up one of the booths because I had a plan previously. But then later we got to know that a guy was being assigned to a tudung booth! Hahaha. So I decided to lend him my hand (not literally). Surprisingly, the actual owner of the company that we receive the stocks from was a guy as well, so I thought I really need to be there. Cewah, perasan.

I didn't wanna be a runner anyway, honestly. The lecture in charge mentioned my name T.T when all I wanted to do was have fun, that is why I did not even gave my name! Hahaha sorry :P and bam! I need to check if everyone is doing their things or not, report this and that, hmm. But I did anyway.

Alhamdulillah this experience was one of the best time I spent in my life, although it lasts for only three days. I have always wanted to know how it feels like to take care a shop, to approach people, to deal with money. Previously I used to work in a kindergarten, it was so fun as well. I coached. I never had this kind of experience!

Alhamdulillah again, the response I received from the customers were overwhelming! Might be because this is my field and I'm a sweet talker. Hihihi. My hobby is convince people in something because that's what I am good at. So alhamdulillah, I even felt like I could start my own tudung business HAHAHA

By the way, I prefer to write in English but I do want to improve my Malay skill.. What should I do? Combining languages in a passage isn't pleasing.. Hmm

Alhamdulillah sejak berakhirnya sesi akademik bagi Tahun Satu, aktiviti di MSU masih tak putus-putus. Bersyukur sangat Allah bagi petunjuk untuk penuhkan hari dengan aktiviti berfaedah. Persetankan kata-kata nista golongan negatif menuduh saya sibuk. Memang saya sibuk! Hehe

During just last week, alhamdulillah I was *selected* to be a facilitator for two conventions! Erm one was a convention, another one is Program Mahasiswa Cemerlang, yep this is my second time being involved. I guess once I'm in the WhatsApp group, I will forever be one of the faci then (yeayyyy)

Memang ni yang saya minta. Alhamdulillah, saya harap apa yang Allah bagi ni terbaik untuk saya lebih dekat kepada dia dan bukan cabaran yang menjauhkan lagi saya. :/ Risaunya kebelakangan ini. Terasa lebih diduga bila cuti ni. Jadual tak teratur, lebih banyak buat benda yang melalaikan.

And anyway I bought a blazer. Hahahahha. It's been 4 years I guess. Used to wear those regularly during debate back in school. I swear, things I treasure most after the knowledge itself is my co-curricular activities. Debate, Red Crescent, Taekwondo, ARCHERY.

Archery was my escape when nobody was on my side (in school). Aaaaaa I need a new escape!

Monday : MEQ 1, MEQ 2, OSPE
Tuesday : SEQ 1, SEQ 2
Wednesday : MCQ 1, MCQ 2

Thursday : Result for viva voce..

According to an unknown source, the result will be announced by evening, but as usual.. When we don't know the source of rumors, most of the time they aren't true! Haha! It was around 7.20 PM, one of our friend shared the photo of the list in whatsapp group.

Alhamdulillah. My name wasn't in the list. The viva is for those who got an A, to make it A with distinction and thoes who failed.

So alhamdulillah. Insya Allah I'll be starting my second year in few months.

Frankly I was quite confident with my Professional Exam 1 answers, alhamdulillah everything I have read came out in the exam. No we didn't have any "spot question". But unfortunately as you have been following this blog, my earlier result were unsatisfying. But alhamdulillah I made it. Alhamdulillah, thank you ya Allah.

Thank you everyone for all the prayers.

Let's see what I am gonna do during this long holiday..

By the way we have an annual dinner tomorrow.

Ohhhhhh anyway a good news! Mawa & Maz were selected for viva voce! They're both my close friends and I am so mad and envy. -_- Just wait you guys, I'm gonna get an A next year!! The labels for MBBS First Year is going to end soon.. :)

Alhamdulillah, I got a B. Yes. The letter I used to hate most, the single letter on my result which used to make me feel so down. And today, here I am, feeling so fantastic about it. Ha!

Despite of few cowpoops, alhamdulillah ya Allah. He loves me so much I don't even feel like I deserve this but He knows best! Frankly I thought I failed. If I can get a B that time, I'm sure with Your help I can do much better for the upcoming Professional Exam 1! :D

I'm really happy now, imagine Honey Boo Boo dancing and that's how I'm confidently happy right now. Hahahaha! Allah has been blessing me with so many thing unexpectedly. Throughout my life, He never stopped giving. I've been so bad, I don't deserve this. T.T I hope this is not the way Allah wants to test me if I will stray away from Him or not. Please, no. Bring me closer to You. T.T

At the phase of growing up, this is a very special gift to me. Means a lot thus here I am leaving it here. I know it doesn't have much content and I keep on repeating the same thing.. No I am emphasizing. Hehe. Thank you everyone. :)

= another one module to go before semester 2 exam = another one module to go before Professional Exam 1!

Susah tak bermakna kita tak suka. Senang tak bermakna kita akan suka sesuatu, kan?

Salah satu antara sebab kenapa saya menggemari modul ini adalah kerana sesi Clinical Examination (Pemeriksaan Klinikal) yang menyeronokkan! Bertambah seronok sebab ramai yang ponteng waktu ni.. Jadi doktor lebih fokus terhadap kami. Hihihi :p

There were so many clinical examination that you can perform and you could actually observe it in normal person! Of course because we're all normal.. Haha. Unlike other modules, I wasn't as curious as during CNS.

It's been a week since the last module started, which is nutritional module where we will only learn the Biochemistry. Alhamdulillah at the end of my first year, I'm starting to fascinate about Biochemistry yeayyyy. After all it wasn't that hard to memorize all the pathways of metabolism. Once we have memorized it before, insya Allah it will appear in the back of your mind smoothly hohoho

Anyway so far I am delighted, I am happy of what I am doing now. Alhamdulillah and thank you everyone for always praying for me. 

驚いたふりするなよ！知ってたくせに。笑　瞬く間にもうすぐ医学１年生を終えます。マレーシアでは１年生＆２年生は Pre-Clinical といって、アカデミックな授業が中心です。私の大学では、１年生に全て「正常」な人間の組織（？）を学んで、２年生になったら病理学や、薬理学といって「病気」を中心にした勉強をするというシステムになってます。

私はもうすぐ１年生を終えるという事は、おそらく医者になるために必要な正常な人間の組織の知識を全部簡単に説明できるはず！！本当正直言って、もう足りるのか分かりません；；

CNS = Central Nervous System

Dalam modul ni, kita akan belajar mengenai saraf, tulang belakang, otak, secara ringkasnya macam mana badan kita terima isyarat dari luar dan bertindak sesuai dengan info yang diterima. CNS merupakan antara modul yang saya gemari. Ya, memang ia merupakan antara modul yang susah. Susah sebab banyak sangat perkara yang kits kena  hafal.

It's been awhile. I used to make fun of people who talk about how seldom they update their blogs.. And here I am doing it. Haha. But it's not merely because I have been busy or what, everything has been normal, it's me who got addicted on certain things like instagram, 9gag (oh it's been almost 3 years I'm with 9gag), and.. The truth is I haven't been able to manage my time well lately.

Recently our Biohemistry lecturers have introduced a viva session every end of each module. We always have a bad impression when it comes to test, what's more orally, right? Me too, but now after 3 vivas, alhamdulillah I am very grateful for the doctors effort and I am proud to say that it helps a lot in boosting my confidence to deal with questions.

Besides Biochemistry, we had a viva session for Anatomy as well. We were in renal module, and out of the blue we were asked to prepare for gastrointestinal module's viva. Gastrointestinal is basically our digestive system, so from the mouth until you defecate, all organs involved can be asked. :O Later we found out that it was held because one of us has requested for it. Haha never mind, alhamdulillah despite quite numerous students avoiding it, I faced it like a lady I am, and it went well.

Progress Test 2

Progress Test 1 was during our first semester, and the percentage will be combined. Alhamdulillah I got a C+ back then. Huhuhuuhu if you won't be happy for yourself, who would, right? :D Insya Allah this time I'm much more confident than before, it's just the I find it hard on MCQ. :( Even the simplest thing can get confusing just because you have to decide whether it's True or False. It even have negative marking. :/ So out of the 5 questions, if we get 2 options right, while 3 options were wrong, our marks will be -1!! Haihhhh that's why the legend says that if you're unsure, just leave it blank, the machine will leave it as 0 lol

On top of that, this was one of the test where we didn't get much "tips". Haha. I don't depend on those, but having it would somehow calms us, isn't it.. And I also figured out that I need to get the right technique to remember important things. You can't write the whole chapter about something, for a 4 marks question, then how should I!? I know how, I just gotta go and see the lecturers.. Hmm

One of the post exam syndrome : Enthusiast to revise more properly, ask the lecturers, etc. Hahahahh I guess it's still better than having no motivation at all. Insya Allah, here I am leaving it here so that I can remind myself always. Good night. Sleep tight. 

Tak sehebat awak.

Hahahahaha. Sesekali seronok juga kan baca orang dapat keputusan tak secermenlang orang cemerlang (?). Ya lah, tak akan lah kalau nak share, share result yang A, 4 flat je kannn. Maka, sedemikianlah keputusan peperiksaan semester 1, tahun 1 saya sebagai pelajar perubatan. Alhamdulillah.

Syukur tak bermakna puas hati. 

I know that I can. Insya Allah I will enjoy my study and strive to do the best that I can. I expected too much from myself, and danggg look at the first progressive test. Just when I thought I have adapted to the new phase of life, something I do feel like I'm left behind from my own track that I made myself. Ha.

Selalu lupakan Allah barangkali. Lalai, main je. Tak dahulukan Allah dalam segala urusan. Dah lah usaha kat dunia pun tak cukup, usaha untuk bertawakkal kepada Allah pun tak cukup. Itu je lah yang dapat ya. Kuantiti usaha memang kita boleh ukur, tapi kualiti kosong. Kadang-kadang bila macam keadaan bagus, baca sekali, terus faham. Hebat kan? Bila Allah nak bagi hidayah, senang macam tu je dapat. Tapi hidayah kena cari. (Dayahhhh macam mana study? Haha)

That's all for now. We got home very early today because the afternoon Anatomy lab has been cancelled yeay. And look what am I doing.. 

Insya Allah, doakan keputusan lepas ni bertambah baik ya. Semoga si penulis ni dapat fokus & diberi hidayah Allah sentiasa dan berjaya di dunia dan akhirat. Terima kasih. 

Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly. Relating with the previous post, I started the contest even before the contest starts, during the break after foundation. I hope this five years will goes by without I even realizing it. Huuu.

I messed up a bit during the progress test 1, which was the first exam we've ever done. I didn't understand how to read, what is important for exam. I think I have roughly grasp how my study should be done. I think so. I hope so. Hahaha

Semester 1 exam ends on Tuesday thus I've been having holoday since Chinese New Year till now and class will start on Monday. I planned to complete the notes but I guess I enjoyed too much of my time rolling around the house literally. It feels so good to just do nothing!

Despite of few petty undesirable things, Allah gave me so many happiness lately. Yuhuuu. A special thanks for everyone, whether you realize it or not, Allah showed me happiness from all of you! Kekeke that sounds so lame.

Yesterday the lecturer actually game a lecture note with only two slides, so I went to see him again today to get the notes. Apparently, he gave me the shortcut. Obviously I can't open it in my laptop, unless somehow my laptop is connected to his laptop.

To be honest, I didn't mind. I see all the lecturers as my parents, I  understand. I just hope that my friends would be able to comprehend the situation, though it's just the first lecture. There's nothing much and we already have those from senior anyway! Maybe I'm the only one who look at it that way..

Ahhh, I'm happy, so I don't mind! I'm going to study for the first tutorial session tomorrow!

Source : http://widowsvoice-sslf.blogspot.com/2013/12/happy.html

That's the story of today :

My first class as an undergraduate.

It's the day I've been waiting for years. It wasn't all straight and easy like most of you, yup. Most of you because most of my friends are all cleverrr from the start! I was just a little bit lack of intelligence, not academically but something else, maybe? Haha

This month would be the Fundamental study. Fundamental about all systems in our body. According to Nas, Fundamental is one of the most important topic that I shouldn't take it lightly. I must be serious form the beginning because this topic will help me a lot for coming lectures.

I'm so grateful that there are so many seniors from across the public universities to help me. Although we're the same batch, I must respect you guys because you're one year senior than me. Hehe. Whatever you said, advice, reminder, I will remember and try to implement it in my study life.

Apparently I'm the class representative for Anatomy. My only job is to get the slides I guess, that's why I didn't mind. Haha. The rest are usually being taken care of by the batch leader. The good thing is I can get to know to my lecturers. In fact, on the very first day, I get to go to the lecturer's room and learnt how to consult with the lecturer. Hahah isn't it awesome?

I thought of getting the lecture note for the upcoming class but according to my lecturer, he can only give it after the lecture. Alhamdulillah the lecturer I called was no nice and helpful. :D

Today was a nice start. I'm content!

What is a cadaver?

Firstly, it is pronounced as ke (as in cat) da (as in day) ver (as in version).

Cadaver is a real human body used for study. Usually, these bodies are kept in a formalin to be preserved. Students are able to dissect to learn about the anatomy of human body.

Highlight of the orientation week.

I was really keen to know the activity on one particular day which was planned to end at 11 PM. If other activities are the title of talks which will be presented by our lecturer, the activity called "A Night With Cadaver" is to be done by the students of International Medical School Student Association, basically our seniors.

As we all know, there's a tradition (or myths?) in medical school where students will have to spend a night with cadavers to see if they are brave enough to be a doctor. I've never heard or met someone say this is true, but, we'll see how my experience would be!

And yes, although the day has been scheduled, the activity went as planned. Yes, indeed, we are going to spend a night with cadavers. But no sleeping over. 

The session starts at 4 o clock, with group activities and we had to come out with our own disease to kill the world population. After Maghrib around 8, we gathered again for night session. We were required to bring a piece of cloth as blind to cover our eyes for the night activity.

The activity started as we enter the dark lecture theater, with some smoke effects, just like a haunted house. Once everyone has seated, we received a video message from the Dean about the disease that has been spreading around the campus. We as the medical students have to find the cure by going through some challenges.

After leaving the dark lecture theater, we needed to put the blind and go to a mysterious place. Though for students who finished any courses in MSU before, the place we were brought was quite obvious, even if our eyes are covered. Hihihh

Basically, there are nine checkpoints and several QR code is left, and we have to find one genuine code with question so that we can proceed to the next checkpoint. It is hidden in places like the senior's bag, or even at the back of the ID. -_- 

Checkpoints.

All of the checkpoints are dark, obviously. Parking lot, library, chancellor hall, the questions based on Medicing will lead us to a hint for the next destination.

"Blood was spilled here."

Few months back, there was a murder case occur among the cleaner or guard, I'm not sure. One of the hint brought us there, at level 8 science tower, totally dark and nobody was there. My mentoring group is all girls, everybody held hands to tight. 

Suddenly we heard a door sounds, I thought there as somebody, since it's a game, I didn't see anything. Until I don't know why everyone started to run like fight-or-flight reaction. It's not running. It's more like escaping away from being chased by monster. I ran as well because we all held hands. Haha

Until I know why everyone was running. There was a guy with white powder all over his face, wearing white clothes (telekung actually), showing his face out of a small window on a door. Some of my friend told me that she saw "it", but she just ignored. Yeah, that's what we should do..

Counting the bodies in dark.

The second last checkpoint was the dissection room. We had to enter in darkness and count how many cadavers are there. We have to open the contained which contains the cadaver, with all the smell. Heh. Honestly I was quite hesitant but after awhile I'm fine. It's really nothing actually. Haha

The question given was about human body. The senior has the dried cadaver, touching all over it. I learnt that a cadaver is considered a body if it has a head.

To conclude, it was really fun. I enjoy this kind of activity, definitely not the kind of people who avoid. One of the most annoying checkpoint was at the chancellor hall, just imagine we have to find a correct piece of paper around 5 x 5cm, where only one is correct. In that huge hall. Nonetheless, I had a lot of fun! Maybe you can try propose this kind of activity!