I have no idea on what to expect. While I'm writing this, until two seconds ago, I was thinking about what to expect but then this strikes me : Why should I expect it?

Sometimes things do happen as how we expect, but sometimes it doesn't. And it's beyond our effort. But then what's wrong with expecting things? Maybe I should rephrase with "preparation". I  want to get myself ready physically and mentally with the real medical school.

We've been challenged on skill of absorbing knowledge all this while and things are going to change from now till death do us apart (of my relationship with medical field). Medical isn't only about intelligent, in fact, to me, it's more on physical works. Labor works. Just like the mechanics, hairdresser, or a cleaner.

I'm anxious.

I'm aware of how society looks down on private university's medical graduates although you're a scholarship receiver. I can only pray that I will not be included in one of "those" meant by almost everyone I met. :(

Nonetheless, I believe the value of a gem won't drop just because it's been dumped. Valuable things remain precious no matter how the surrounding is. Just a little bit more, girl................ Sabar. :)

Enough with being emotional, insya Allah I will be writing more during third year, which I have said the same thing last year but I couldn't. For now, I have decided not to take part in SRC this year, so I hope I will be able to spend more time on this and archery.

New label : MBBS Third Year