We can only plan, the rest, Allah decides, I perceive that.

But we can choose on what to do at this moment we have. Allah gave us a lot of options, in fact, we are the one who create the options! We set our own limits, and we are the one who's chasing the goal.

What's the goal? What are we chasing for in our life? I'm totally too young to say about this, but at my age, I believe to just make things that make me happy. I just wanna enjoy my life and be happy. Every time I feel happy, I feel accomplished.

To be honest, I know there are some people who's life isn't really easy, in term of financially. I must admit that I will never understand how does it feel like. To me, choosing a career is not solely about looking for which has the potential the most to make money. Literally.

"I wanna be a doctor because I wanna buy a Lamborghini,"

Things like that. I just don't really feel right.. Is that what you wanna do in your life? Yeah, for example, becoming a doctor isn't only about getting the money. It's about sacrificing your time, emotional, well everything you do require sacrifices.

So, now, does what you're gonna do worth all the sacrifices you're gonna face?

Besides that, I really hate it when people (around me, of course :D) talk about how hard to study in science stream, especially medical, is compared to other courses. Nothing is easy or hard. For God sake. So you think it's difficult, you wanna do it to prove everyone that you can, to prove everyone for what? You're living for someone else! Get your life and live for yourself, be happy.

You know why? So that you won't become a materialistic person. Looking too much on the visible. Measure everything, this is better, this is worse, all about competing with people around you. Comparing to see who's better. Who's richer. Who's more successful. I never understood how come most people are like this. People who gets a straight A's is an intelligent, while the rest are dumb, unsuccessful, and won't gonna do anything beneficial in their life.

Allah never compares. He never told things like if you pray 80 times a day, you are guaranteed to enter the Heaven. NO. I've never found things like this, is there any guaranteed way to enter His heaven?

Here? If you get a straight A's, you are successful. Stupid. Hahhaha

To consider what you're capable of is important, I agree. But it's no more about getting an A+ anymore after this. For Foundation we're doing, yes, because it's the ticket for us to enter the course we intend to, with scholarships.

After this? I really do not know, please tell me if what I think is wrong, but what I expect is to learn. During my degree afterwards. Learn, in term of truly understand what is being taught, relate what I learn in my life so the knowledge can bring me closer to Allah. Not just to simply memorize and chase for 90% and above. It won't be my priority, but don't get me wrong, for now, it is!! Getting a 90% and above IS MY PRIORITY, but I will still insya Allah remember the one thing that's really important in my life - relationships with Allah & human beings.

It's crazy.. To be around people who just really want the As.. Even they way they talk, think, is materialistic.. I'm scared that I can't fit.. :/

I just wanna be happy..