I know I am. That's why I understand why people have to shout, yell, talk with anger to me. Because if they don't talk like that, I just won't understand. Because I'm stupid. I feel sorry for everyone around me. For having to deal with such a burden like me, an idiot. I forget everything. I know about nothing. I keep on asking stupid, ridiculous questions. I don't remember the roads. I'm idiot.

It's my bad for being an idiot. Maybe I'm actually being an idiot purposely, but I just don't realize it. Why am I so idiot? Even I hate myself.

How am I going to learn? I want to learn. I want to stop being an idiot. But nobody seems to want to teach an idiot. Teach, I mean teach. Not yell & tell what I have to do. Teach.......................... But then again I udnerstand.. I can't expect people to be like how exactly I want. I have to deal with that. Deal with any kind of way people want to teach me.

When you're happy, I'll listen to you. When you're not, I'll keep quiet. When you want me to say something, I will.

Cause it's always been that way. You're too perfect. Too good. I'm the stupid one, so I have to know my place and just keep my mouth shut. Act just how you want me to. I'll do my best, but there may be times I can't handle myself.. But I know it won't be that long right? Only for few minutes, and I promise you'll be the perfect once & I'm the stupid one back. :)

Maybe it seems easy for you, you'll forget it immediately. But I'm not. I'll be holding this until the worse thing comes and replace the old one. It's okay, I don't mind, I don't blame people, it's my own fault anyway to keep those things. I really don't care cause we're all gonna die someday.